As someone single, I always thought that there was only one way love can kill you, and that is the crushing blow of rejection. Constantly chasing someone who will never ever turn to look at you and consider you, to the point where she isn’t a crush, but a fantasy.
I’ve had a few dreams recently that makes me believe that there other emotions that can kill you – envy and jealously. I know of a girl whom I met who has a boyfriend. She is a really sweet and nice girl and I constantly say that her boyfriend is lucky to have her in his life. I realized however, that perhaps I liked her all along. I never had that infatuation nor a crush kind of feeling because I have always accepted that she is already taken. But I now realize that it is the feeling of envy and jealousy that is killing me know. I want to have someone like her, I want to have her, but I cannot, because there is another guy out there, who has her, and loves her, and she loves him back.
Like A Valley With No Echo, Passion’s Grace 11/9/2016. Rochor Centre, Singapore.
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