Fade

Fade

I went for supper after choir prac last Sat.

 

Just after leaving Tong Shui Cafe,

 

Bernard Sew: Eh? Since when were you with us?

Me: I was with you all right from the start.

Bernard: Oh, I didn’t even notice you at all.

Me: Nah it’s okay. I’m invisible all the time.

 

Anyway, while waiting for my business cards to be printed, I walked around Lasalle for fun. Quite a nifty place I must say, quite impressed by it. I’m someone who looks out for the language and estatics of a building, not like those who go round treasure hunting sewerage pipes and ICs, and I was generally wowed by the design. This is how an arts school should be designed, unlike lousy SP. The spaces, the big open areas, the fake garden in the middle, murals on the walls, glass walls for display. I feel so outclassed just being among the Lasalle kids. They all stike out while people like me just fade behind. Yeah.

 

My gradshow is this Thursday-Sunday but i’ll only be there on Thursday. It’s an exhibition at Suntec, whole day thing. PLEASE COME! 😀

 

This coming Good Friday would mark one year of a real close friendship, but it won’t happen anymore, now that you barely talk to me anymore. Our friendship has faded. I made mistakes and now I’m paying the price. But it’s okay. It was fun while it lasted. It has been a memorable year with you. Thank you.

 

I’m still very confused, cookie.

 

Toodles.

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Au Revoir Simone/At Sixes And Sevens

Au Revoir Simone

Okay, slightly late review.

 

So i went for Au Revoir Simone’s concert last Sunday with my archisister, Mou. I have to say i was really impressed with the 3 girls. They came, they dazzled the stage with their nifty and cute keyboard lines and their smooth vocals. Their music IS groovy. The whole audience just let loose and really had a blast, whether they knew the songs or not. I overheard one guy saying that everyone’s so into the music, when someone says excuse me or something, they really shoot at the fella the damn irritated look. Haha. That kinda sums up the crowd really. Everyone was awesome.

 

Barely any mistakes during the concert, maybe just one or two. As expected, Annie Hart won me over with her personality and her vocals. Yea, all 3 of them sound the same, but noooo. Heather D’Angelo has quite a pure sound, Annie Hart’s a little sexy sultry, Erika’s in the middle, perhaps a little nasal, but still, the magic happens when all 3 of them sing together. Just fantastic.

 

I got their autographs too, Annie is WONDERFUL! 😀

 

Anyway I was telling Mou how I continue life cos suicide is a pretty selfish thing. Not thinking about others. But now I feel as if i’m living for others and not for myself anyhmore. There is just no self incentive in life anymore.

 

Will leave you guys with pics, and 2 videos, just in case you don’t know who they are yet! HOW COULD YOU?! Toodles.

 

 

Shadows-Au Revoir Simone

Sad Song-Au Revoir Simone

 

At Sixes And Sevens-Sirenia

In times of strife
you seem to lose it all, and more somehow
No waning life can retrieve it
Can’t make the world a better place to thrive
nor can I keep on persisting

You’re on the wane in funereal winds
with a thousand winters within
You’re life unveil its weary eyes
Sun sets in somber skies

Your waning desires brought to fire
where your withering life has been mourned
For a thousand years, where the pain blend with ire
and the night enflames us both

"Walk down the narrow path
Years of decay
Feel life’s soul-inflicting hurt once again"

You’re dying now
You make it feel somewhat divine
Your lenient eyes are somewhat healing
You make it feel the less a strife now
A precious life cease persisting

You’re on the wane and eden’s hewn
falter still under a funereal moon
Your tears they sweep upon life’s shore
until the day you weep no more

Sunset’s on the wane
In life we suffer the same
When sundown comes around
stalking strangers on hollowed ground
Endarkened souls entwined
together at the end of life
Embrace the new divine
or suffer another lifetime

I can feel the flames
the fire lick me in vain
My life can’t be regained
not now, nor then, nor ever again
We cross our feeble hearts
the day our souls depart
Life move in strangest ways
We died somewhat, somehow in every day

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‘No I Did Not Dress For The Party, I Dressed For You’

‘No I Did Not Dress For The Party, I Dressed For You’

Dinner and Dance last night was pretty fun. Had a few good laughs, average food, good desserts, amongst other things.

 

-Lezlie pulled off a Mozart

-Brandon’s jacket looked like a raincoat.

-Brandon brought his seat belt as well.

-Zu Huai’s blazer was nice.

-Cheryl wore a dress. How rare is that.

-Cheryl had cool heels as well.

-Winson came looking damn good as usual.

-Winson intro-ed us this Midori alchohol drink. Maybe I should try it as well.

-There was Famous Amos cookies.

-I forgot to bring home the vouchers.

-The main food as so so.

-The desserts were good. 3 servings!

-Rudy won best dressed. Well done!

-Better luck next time, Zhi Kai, i mean, Skye.

-I did not win any lucky draw.

–I was secretly happy someone came for the event.

-I was glad i came.

-Toodles.

 

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When Your Heart Is As Black As Death

When Your Heart Is As Black As Death

I have finally finished recording and mixing Black. Took me a total of 2 weeks, and I have to say i’m pretty much pleased with the result. It sounds really different from the previous songs. As Mou pointed out to me, the lead singers have really different qualities. The lead singers being Crystal Lee in my demo and Nicole Siew in Black. Which I do agree. But the difference ultimately leads to personal taste. Crystal would not be able to sing the songs the same way as Siew and vice versa. I believed I have made the right vocalists choices this time round, all 3 of them.

 

Nicole Siew being the lead role in this set of songs brings out the melodies well i feel. I liked the way she handled the chorus lines of Machina and the choral lines of Deviltry.

 

Gabriel Quek was my last minute desicion since Keith Heng pulled out at the 11th hour. Naturally things weren’t easy for him since the notes were slightly off his range, but he still attempted them very well. In fact, I liked them! The motif lines for him on Machina and Deviltry were done well, he blended well in Beseech as well. Whee~

 

Marianne Chan, though i admit is my weakest singer among the lot, still did well. Her vocals in Beseech was outstanding. She handled the conversation bit in Beseech very well too. Her vocal tone also brings a different edge to the style of the songs as well, being very different to Nicole’s voice. Still, the last stanza of Beseech glued very well. Comparing alto to alto, Stacie has a more pure voice, but I don’t think she’ll pull of these melodies as well as Marianne. Namie too.

 

Thanks once again, all 3 of you, for singing for me.

 

Here’s a pic i’ve been obsessed with recently.

Whoops didn’t scale it properly. The girl looks like a horse now. Haha. 

 

"Every time they cut you, I bleed."

 

Toodles.

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The Blackest Heart/Beseech

The Blackest Heart

Today has been a rainbow of emotions for me.I feel so accomplished for almost finishing my Black set.Meeting Marianne tomorrow to finish up some leftovers then i’ll do artwork then i’m done.It’s really amazing how tunes in your head and all come to life with the vocalists in mind as well.It’s really amazing.I feel so amazed at this level. Imagine how Arjen Lucassen or Tobias Samett feels.INSANE.

 

I’m also annoyed at how you never apologize.I’m sorry miss,but the world doesn’t revolve around you.

 

Other things,I also realized how much I miss you.It’s been quite awhile and we’ve not talked.Hope you are okay and I hope to see you soon.

 

This shall be the last entry where there will be no spaces in between sentences.Time for better writing.

 

"That song you keep playing is nothing but a photograph you look at with your ears."

 

 

Toodles.

 

Beseech-Passion’s Grace

[Music and Lyrics by Adam Aw]

 

[Nicole Siew,Adam Aw]

Beseech you!

Your hunger knows no limit

A craving so infinite

Eats into my heart

 

Betwixt us

A rising hatred flares

Do you even care?

Burning up my heart

 

Misery me!

Love and passion bleeds

You never intercede

This hole within my heart

 

[Marianne Chan,Gabriel Quek]

Believe me!

I did not cry for nothing

Nor did I cry for everything

I cried for you heart

 

Sear me!

I’m not worthy of your sight

Just end my plight

Put a stake through my heart

 

[All]

Exile me

Exile me from your mind

If you’re ever that kind

If you even have a heart

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