The Years All Behind Me The Stories Exhaled

The Years All Behind Me The Stories Exhaled

Before i start.I just want to say ytd’s Austrian choir performance was really good and i enjoyed it.

 

So once again,it’s time for a year review entry,for today is 31st December.

 

"Cherish the friendships we have right now."That was something i randomly said to Isabel last night on msn.But this line itself explains the most important thing i learnt from this year.I’m sure all of us agree that 2008 passed by really quickly and exactly one year ago.I asked u all,if u are really making the most of your time.So have u?

 

Contentment is something i discovered this year.I discovered this while making the most of my time this year,other than the schoolwork and others.I devoted most of my time this year to friendships.As the year went by,i found out who really cares for me and sticks by my side at all times,and who is just a leech.I wanted friendships with these sincere ones to bloom and grow.I put in effort and of course at times these efforts don’t really show,but it doesn’t matter.As long as i mean it,it’s ok.

 

What saddens me at times is how the other party does not even notice/acknowledge these efforts and at times brush off the feeding hand,the caring hand,the guiding hand.It’s sad when one puts in so much effort and it all goes to waste.In the near future when he is gone,he will then be appreciated and sorely missed.But guess what,it’s too late.

 

Never take friendships for granted.There is no I in We.There is no I in Us.There is no I in Together.It’s never about yourself.That’s something that ties along too.One must never forget how important friends are in one’s life.And one should always show his appreciation back,or just show assurance.Sincere assurance.

 

Overall,2008 has been a rather pleasant year for me,and yes,i am grateful for that.And i’m grateful for the friends who helped me get through this year,despite all the difficulties.At the beginning of the year,it was final presentation of year1 and i screwed up badly.I was quite certain that i would get retained.But my classmates were there to reassure me.People like Mou,Brandon,Claire,Chun Ming,Liyen and many many others.True enough i scraped through.And it was honestly thanks to everyone’s encouragement,if not i would have slackened my portfolio review and would probably get retained in the end.

 

I went to the US after that.Sure enough i missed everyone in Singapore,despite going wonderful places and getting a new acoustic fretless bass.But it really heartened me to know that i was missed too.Thanks to people like Julian,Isabel and Tarcia who kept contacting me while i was there and asking how i was.Just having people missing me really touched me deeply.

 

Year2 started.And all the way until now,i certainly had my ups and downs.And people were always there for me.But at the same time,especially during the November period,people seemed to forget me,lose me,ignore me.People whom i felt really close to.It disheartened me for sure,but then again,i failed to put myself in their shoes.Classmates were always there for me though.Thanks=)))

 

So once again,thanks to all who made my 2008 bright.I can’t believe it but i really feel death coming closer to me now.Like,one more year has passed already man.Omg.

 

Thanks Luke for being so sincere in our friendship.You are really a great friend indeed and i don’t know where i’d be in choir without you at all.

 

Thanks Zheng Yi,for always remembering me.Even if i don’t appear in your blog as often(hahaha),i know that i’m remembered for u always make an effort to ask me out no matter how busy you are.And really thanks.I don’t put in such effort at times and if you don’t do such things,we would have probably strayed.Thanks for bringing me to watch the My Sassy Girl movie too.I’m still loving it.

 

Thanks Regina Grace,for always listening to me.I know i’m always stumping you with alot of things i say,but they are always honest and sincere and i hope you really take them into consideration.You always make me laugh and happy even when you are quite tired.

 

Thanks Isabel Teh,for being there for me THROUGHOUT THE ENTIRE YEAR.Almost the whole year you were mugging for A Levels and u still took some time to hear me out.When your A Levels ended and you started to hang out more in church,u obviously made new friends,but thanks for still remembering me=) I’m always there when you need me.

 

Thanks Chun Ming,Brandon,Claire or being such a wonderful bunch of people in class.You guys always encourage me not to give up when i’m quite disheartened and all.And all the wonderful outings too.Thanks alot.

 

Thanks Sant and Zu Huai for making me keep in touch with my music side by jamming once in awhile.I always enjoy our jamming sessions,though i don’t say much during our jamming haha.

 

Thanks Winson for all the jamming too.Be it school or outside.Thanks for the CS and the movies too lol.

 

Thanks Glen for making yourself free to jam with me once again.I have always enjoyed jamming with you and perhaps this band could be a place where we can start jamming all over again.You are one guitarist i love playing with,but u must play with more expression lah haha.

 

Thanks Crystal Lee.Thanks for the fun msn conversations and for the jamming.Honestly,this whole jamming thing would not have happened if you did not express interest in jamming when i talked about it that time.So we kinda founded this small for-fun band man haha.Thanks for understanding too.You’ve got a great voice,use it well.

 

Thanks Dorothy and Christine for being such awesome ‘new found friends from camp’.It’s been really fun talking u all,be it msn or real life.The camp really worked wonders eh haha.Dorothy,i’m sure u’re wise enough to make desicions and be sure to always think of others too.Christine,return me my Nightwish cd!!!YEAA!!

 

Thanks Andrew and Matthew Cheong for being such awesome section mates.=)

 

Thanks Stacie,for all these years.Thanks for remembering me before the Festival itself too.=) Hope you remember our motto!!=D

 

Thanks Geri.Thanks for everything.I may not msn u as often as last time when we did random blog quizzes,but hey!Until now and forever you’ll always be my Hybrid Banana!!!=DD

 

Thanks Rachael for being such a good friend too.Always there to cheer me up and just brighten my day or night!!!Must webcam more!And i must send u more songs!!!TIPTOE THROUGH THE TULIPS!!!

 

Thanks Joshua Chong,for all the randomness that somehow brightens me up!=)

 

Thanks Aw cousins,for just being so awesome.Jarad you’re included too,and a big deal too!=D

 

Thanks Anthony for being there for me too.I know i was being an ass on my birthday,but thanks for listening me out that day.I know you are quite tense these weeks/months.But don’t worry,everything will be okay.I’m here if you need me.

 

Thanks Krygsmans,all of you,for being such a great family.I think you guys real deserve to be the role model family for the parish!!!

 

Thanks Lucas,for guiding Halmm all the way til where we are.Through you i have also learnt to be responsible too and how to make quick desicions.Thanks for trusting me from the start.

 

Thanks Desmond for all your musical guidance.You know much more than me so your desicions always overwrite mine,but with great results too.Thanks for listening out to all my worries too,be it latin parts of mass,or just random rantings=D

 

Thanks Marianne Choo for that xmas note u gave me last year.I am still trying/continuing to make a difference=D

 

Thanks Marianne Chan for that Annual Gathering!!!!!It’s glad our teacher remembers us too right.Haha.Must meet up next year again!!!

 

Thanks Enthrall Masquerade.Thanks Namie and Leonard,for being such great bandmates and friends.We must jam again and find that joy in acoustic music again=)

 

Thanks Nicole Siew,for being so instrumental in the success of the Halmm camp.Thanks for all the random hang outs these past years too.I remembered you were the 1st person i casually hung out with when i 1st joined Halmm.We met to study at BK then somehow moved to KFC then moved to Icekimo haha.Thanks for spending your time with me 2 birthdays ago too=) I remembered you were sick and all but still made the effort to hang out with me and teach me pool haha.Thanks!

 

Thanks Julian Wong,for all the treats you treated me=D You are a really good friend and we should hang out soon.=)

 

Thanks Gabriel Quek,for everything.We joined Halmm together and though we don’t hang out as much anymore,i still remember the random hang outs too.I had fun then and i’m still having fun now.You,Luke and I must be closer!!!

 

Thanks Michael for being so dedicated in improving us as well=)

 

Thanks Angelina Bong.Thanks for all the spontaneous hang outs and for all the Icekimo banana splits too=) I’ll miss you when u return to Canada.

 

Thanks rest of Halmm,for touching my life in a way or another=DDD

 

Thanks SP Jazz Band,for the good jamming/performances we did together early this year.I may have left,but i will still remember you guys and the times we played good music together=)

 

Thanks Fuel,for always making my Fridays brighter=D

 

Thanks everyday people around me for recognizing and being so warm to me.Thanks cleaning auntie in school,hawker centre peeps,Mr Postman,Mr Ice Cream Man,the peeps at Icekimo,the peeps at Yamaha Thomson,the 169 bus driver,the friendly neighbours and many many more.

 

Thanks yellow butterflies outside the school studio,for showing me how simple beauty can be.

 

Thanks Dream Theater for making my day on January17 2008.

 

Thanks SMV,Austria Choir,Lord of the Rings Symphony for realy enriching my ears with the brilliance of music throughout the whole year.

 

Thanks Clement Boey for remembering me and staying close to me throughout all these years since primary5 =3

 

Thanks church people,for always making me feel so warm and welcome in church.

 

Thanks Keat Ling,for always being there for me!=D

 

Thanks Ms Pan,for remembering me and never giving up on me!!=DDD

 

Thanks lecturers,for never giving up on me.

 

There are so many more people to thank.I can’t think much right now but i think i got most,MOST,of the people whom i want to thank down in this entry.2008 is coming to a close now,in 3hours++.So have you made the most of this year?If you have,or even if you haven’t,let 2009 be a year to cherish all the friendships you have.Be grateful for each other.No man is an island.

 

The years all behind me;

The stories exhaled.

 

Goodbye 2008,i’ll miss you.

 

Toodles.

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20 Years And Beyond/Monolithia/Restart

20 Years And Beyond

Lack of regular updates these days thanks for schoolwork and what-nots.So i shall begin this entry with a little recap.

 

Saturday i woke up,and knew that i was going to get a bad throat soon,but since i wasn’t singing much that day,i didn’t bother too much.I went to Church of the Risen Christ which is at Toa Payoh for a special occasion-Uncle Greg and Auntie Liz’s 20th wedding anniversary!!!I played for their mass,so was quite nervous and pressurising,but everything went smoothly in the end.Thank goodness for me!!!The reception was nice and so were the little ‘performances’ and a nice slideshow.Overall,i just wanna say CONGRATS UNCLE GREG AND AUNTIE LIZ!!!=DDD

 

Guess what organ i played there?

 

Anyway by night time i was getting worried about my voice since i was jamming on Sunday,so i drank starfruit juice and ate that thing my mum eats when she has a bad throat non stop haha.Was quite desperate for a cure man.

 

Monolithia

Well so Sunday i woke up with my throat feeling better,a good sign for me.And so i went jamming!!!The same bunch and Christine tagged along too hohoho.

 

Jamming was okay lah.We jammed a total of 6 songs this time inclusive of old songs.So here’s what we did.

 

Starlight-Muse

Zombie-The Cranberries

Animal Instinct-The Cranberries

Feuer Overtüre/Prometheus Entfesselt-Therion

Lotus-Tristania

Mark Of Cain-Therion

 

Winson was damn funny man.

 

Me:Do you know the sequence of the song?

Winson:Huh got secrets of the song?!

 

Me:Shall we play Lotus?

Winson:HUH TURTLE?!

 

Dinner with Glen,Crystal and Christine at Subway(which kinda killed my throat even more).The things we talked about was damn funny man!!KAPOOT!EXPLOSIVE POTATO!!!Chatted for quite a long while before heading home to chiong HTA essay.By the time i reached home i had no voice left.I got the flu however.

 

We discussed online our band name and after a good thorough discussion,we settled with the name Monolithia.Mmmmmmm.

 

So lineup of Monolithia!(hoho i love doing this)

 

Crystal Lee-Vocals

Glen Chen-Guitars

Christine Leow-Guitars/(Keyboards in the future?)

Winson Tai-Drums

Adam Aw-Bass/Vocals

 

The recordings were crappier though lol.Oh well.

 

Restart

Returned to school today sounding like a horse playing a trumpet through my nose.Lecture was okay.I paid attention!!!

 

The usual 4 went to Clementi for brunch this time since i requested for my newfound love-porridge!We ate at some hawker centre and the porridge stall was called Soon Lee.Chun Ming ordered pork porridge and i ordered chicken porridge.Guess what,we were told we had to wait 25minutes for it man.Like WTH??But the wait was worth it lah.It was good.

 

Left for home early since i wasn’t feeling too well and all.I don’t know how to do CSW!!!Sian.Hope tml will be a better day and hope i can plot out my MDR submission by Wednesday.Which reminds me,GEMS!!!!=(((((

 

Toodles.

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Drain/The Cry Of Mankind

Drain

Tired,exhausted.

 

All the daily activities,even my own homework,is killing me.I have no personal time to just reflect anymore.I have no private time to rest and gather back my energy anymore.Even my sleep keeps getting interrupted or disturbed every night.

 

Too many things in my head.It tires me.Worried over this,worried over that.Planning this,planning that.It kills me too.My mind always feels like shutting down be it morning or night.Things are so complicated.

 

All these emotions and people’s emotions.I have to consider all.I’m worn out.To my jigsaw buddy,don’t be surprised or hurt if i do not start conversations with u and chat up as often anymore.I’m way too tired.While i still cherish you and our friendship,i think i gave in a little too much energy into this friendship.I’m totally drained and lifeless.

 

Tired-physically,mentally,emotionally.

 

Usually before a performance/gig.I spend 5mins alone to just recollect my thoughts and just reflect alone.I had no time to do so before Festival of Carols.Just BEING invisible was the only option:O Yes i can’t believe i said that.But it’s quite true.Fortunately everything went well.Whew.

 

Oh well.I hung out with Angie and Anthony today.Quite fun lah,but even more tired now.Zzzzzzz.

 

Was looking at my recent pictures and guess what i found!!!=DDD

 

Hahaha oh well.It’s fun to webcam once in awhile.Doing it with Rachael was fun hahaha.

 

Ok back to work.Sian.Toodles.

 

The Cry Of Mankind-My Dying Bride

You can’t expect to see him and survive
You’ll swallow his tongue of thorns
His mouth, dripping with flies
In his glorious kingdom of fire
But I believe he wept
I will make them all lie down
Down where hope lies dying
With lust, you’re kicking mankind to death
We live and die without hope
You tramp us down in a river of death
As I stand here now, my heart is black
I don’t want to die a lonely man
This is a weary hour
This is a weary hour

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Christmas 08

Christmas 08

1st of all,MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE!!!=DDD

 

Festival of Carols was pretty decent,glad everything went smoothly and went well.Xmas mass too,though my voice was quite gone halfway through the mass lol.So For The Beauty Of The Earth as thanksgiving hymn was quite screwy.

 

Overall it has been a great day.This Christmas has started on a brilliant note for me.Much better than last year at least=D

 

Once again,i love Halmm!And thanks guys for the gifts,i like Geri’s card the best.Thanks!Here’s what she said:

 

Hey Adam!

 

     Thanks for everything:) It’s been great knowing you.May you stay happy,funky,healthy,Adam-y,choir-y,bass-y,bassist-y,mango tea-y always:) Merry X’mas & Happy New Year!:)

 

                      Geri!

 

 

 

Haha it’s very typical her lah,but yea i liked that short note alot!Thanks.I hope everyone liked the stuff i did for them=)

 

Ok i’m tired.Toodles.

JiamJiam!!

ANGIE BONG!!!

GERALDINE SEAH!!!

Luke=D

Gabriel Quek!!!!!

Crystal!

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Son Of The Sun

Son Of The Sun

Put your music collection on shuffle, and use the song titles it spits out to answer the questions below.

If someone says, “Is this okay?” you say…
The Call-Regina Spektor

What would best describe your personality?
Time Is Running Out-Muse

What do you like in a guy/girl?
Last Time by Moonlight-Enya

How do you feel today?
To Iona, Pt1:The Hermit Song-John Cameron

What is your life’s purpose?
Six Degrees of Inner Turbulence: I. Overture-Dream Theater

What is your motto?
Infralove-Diablo Swing Orchestra

What do your friends think of you?
TOF – The Trinity-Therion

What do you think about very often?
Angel-The Corrs   =D

What is 2+2?
The Crowning of Atlantis-Therion   WOW

What do you think of your best friend?
Little Wings-The Corrs

What do you think of the person you like?
Song of Exile-John Cameron

What is your life story?
Our Great Divide-Tarja

What do you want to be when you grow up?
From The Dionysian Days-Therion

What do you think when you see the person you like?
Fallen-Sarah McLachlan     =(

What do your parents think of you?
Know Why the Nightingale Sings-Nightwish

What will you dance to at your wedding?
Touching Tongues-Steve Vai

What will they play at your funeral?
Time-Sarah McLachlan

What is your hobby/interest?
In My Time Of Need-Opeth

What is your biggest secret?
Balrog Boogie-Diablo Swing Orchestra

What do you think of your friends?
Dead Boy’s Poem-Nightwish

What’s the worst thing that could happen?
Breathless-The Corrs         I AGREE

How will you die?
Breaking Through South Gate-Final Fantasy IX OST Plus            (Errrr)

What is the one thing you regret?
Helheim-Therion

What makes you laugh?
Whiskey & Wine-311           LOL

What makes you cry?
How Deep Is Your Love-Bee Gees

Will you ever get married?
By the Pain I See in Others-Opeth

What scares you the most?
The Dark Elf-Blind Guardian

Does anyone like you?
Dark Avenger-Manowar

If you could go back in time, what would you change?
We Are Thieves!-Final Fantasy IX OST

What hurts right now?
Solitary Ground-Epica

What will you post this as?
Son of the Sun-Therion

Hmmmm,this one not as nice as others i did before lol.Oh well=D

Toodles.

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Ab Intra

Ab Intra

Hmm i actually wanted to phrase everything in a poem,but wth,can’t be bothered hahaha.

 

I finished the buying stuffs for the xmas stuff for Halmm.Finally!!Just needs abit more work and i’ll give them.I hope they like it man.It’s the 1st time i’m ever doing/preparing something for the whole choir.So far i like whatever i’m seeing,so yay!

 

Hmm there’s something i feel like saying to you,or just admit to you.However,i do not know how to phrase myself.I don’t even know if i have the balls to tell u lah.But it’s something quite sincere i guess.I dunno,maybe being too honest is not a good thing.

 

But whatever it is,i guess i can’t rely too much on people for decisions.It’s about time i made desicions from the heart,from within.

 

Everything is pretty abstract in this post so far right?

 

Ok in other stuffs,thanks JiamJiam Luke Dorothy and Daphne for the xmas gifts!!!Dorothy i can tell u wrote my note so thanks alot!=DD And JIAMJIAM I DON’T LIKE U WEARING HEELS!!!!HMPPHHHH!!!!!=((((

 

I’m actually feeling confused right now.I don’t know what i should do!

 

"You are not invisible……..it’s just that the people around you are just blind". Wow thanks alot Kevin=) That really made my day man.

 

I think i’ll blog something more substantial next time.Off to do my xmas stuffs for the choir!

 

Toodles.

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Dream Of A Dream So Far Away

Dream Of A Dream So Far Away

Had a terrible nightmare last night,and i woke up with a terrible backache.Ok lah the 1st dream i had was really really good,those kind where it will never happen real life though u wish it will.But the 2nd dream just owned the 1st one in a horror fashion=(

 

Woke up with a stiff neck.Eeeuck.

 

Anyway today was the last day of carolling engagements,so only the formal stuffs left.Hyped up hyped up!

 

Pictures and that’s it.Toodles!

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My Apologies

My Apologies

While i am not going to delete my earlier post(i never do such things),i certainly regret saying those things,most of them at least, since the last part was a seperate thing altogether haha.

 

I actually almost created my own shit out of what i said,but luckily it seems things are still good between us.=D

 

Carolling today was good and so was the MASH POTATOES.=P

 

So yea,i’m sorry for causing a misunderstanding,but my earlier post was not directed at you.Only the 1st 2 lines which came out rather carelessly too.Glad to see you feeling better today=)

 

Tired.

 

Toodles.

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Apocalypse All Dressed In White

Apocalypse All Dressed In White

To start things off,if ignoring me makes u feel better,then by all means ignore me okay.I’m invisible anyway right.

 

Ok.I’m really annoyed and pissed at how people just react to things.Shit happens to all of us and really man,just deal with it.You don’t have to say things like that.You don’t have to react that way okay.And seeking for sympathy and then just biting the helping hand just makes me want to hate you.

 

Just in case u didn’t know,i have problems too okay.Today was damn shit for me okay.Deal with it.

 

Yes i am angry.I’m not just angry with myself anymore.I’m really fuming man with you,you and yes,still angry with YOU.You 3 are really the cause of annoying me to hell.Really man,just go to hell.I have so much anger with these people,it’s enough for me to hate everyone.But no,it won’t be fair.Won’t be fair to ppl like JiamJiam,Rachael and Luke.

 

Just go to hell okay.

 

On a more passive note,our 14days have ended.Thanks for those days and the fun we had.See you soon.

 

Apocalypse all dressed in white-the best way to describe today.

 

Toodles.

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Sincere

Sincere

I think whatever i talked about last night on msn with you,while they were really honest and sincere,i think i talked abit too much heh heh.Maybe we’ll see each other differently already.Maybe.

 

But after much thought (and sleep),i realise i should just be contented eh.Like what u said,let nature take it’s course and well,be happy with what i have=)

 

But yes,i still do cherish.=D

 

Carolling ytd was fun(ny).Abit pissed at the start,but it was fun overall.

 

Right,pictures.Toodles.

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