Farewell He Said/HHH

Farewell He Said

I had my mind cleared during mass yesterday.

I know the root of the problem now.

I understand that I am at fault,but that does not mean you are the victim.

I am still the victim.

I was crushed by you.

I prayed so hard for you whenever you had worries.

I did not expect you to become like this.

I am possesive.

I don’t know why you have changed to much.

I don’t know if I knew you right from the begining.

I know that something must be done.

I ignore you.

I shun you.

I built this friendship so much only for it to become like this.

I have to let this friendship go.

I help you but you bite off the feeding hand.

I have given up on you.

I have to let you go.

I realised you are not the person I used to know anymore.

I wish you farewell.

I am feeling better.

 

HHH

Thanks guys,i am really feeling much better already.My head’s cleared now.

 

Met up with Halmm Helping Hands to finalise the stuffs for the choir camp ytd!Most of it is pretty much solved,just need to call here call there asap!Don’t have much time left.We had a few fun games after the meeting while waiting for mass practice to start.Speaking of which,Rachael joined choir!She easily made friends with everyone and really blended in well.Really nice to see her mingle with us now.=) Carolling season is fast approaching too,how timely~.

 

And you,in case you have not realised,i am abit distant from you already.I dunno why,but letting you go is the only way to clear my mind for now.

 

Oh,thanks Dayna,Chelsia,Chun Ming,Crystal,Shi Chun,aunts and uncles,Joshua,Tarcia,some person whom i don’t have your contact but u smsed me anyway thanks!,Desmond,Wynn,Lucas,Nicole Siew,Sherry,Melissa,Anthony,Isabel,Kathryn,Alex,Fabian,Cheryl Gien,Lanzi,Winson,Benjamin Fang,Namie(eh call me to wish me sia,thanks!=D),Brandon Mak,Claire,Keat Ling,Ivan Chin,Stefan,Amirah,Song Xi,Zu Huai,Wensheng,Dominic,Matthew Wong,Eunice,Grace Goh,Paula,Penelope,Matthew Cheong,family,Halmm,TalkBass.com,Facebook.com and my Nintendo DS for your birthday wishes!!!And to those whom i missed out i am really sorry!But thanks anyway!=D

 

Pictues and i’m out.Toodles.

 

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In Your Head,They’re Still Fighting/18

In Your Head,They’re Still Fighting

I listen to almost any song and i will have the most depressing images in my head.

I call out but nobody answers.

I put so much faith in our friendship and you squandered them all away.

I am invisible.People around me make descisions which assume i have a heart of stone.

I did not expect much but u still disappointed me.

I can’t find much reasons to live anymore.

I am telling you,it’s not you nor everyone.It’s me.

I wanted answers for my birthday,that’s all.

I know this can’t go on.

I am too afraid to screw this up again.

I steal.

I don’t deserve to talk to all of you.

I never wanted all of this to happen.

I choose to isolate.

 

18

Classmates gave me a cake today,thanks guys.I shall thank everyone in specific soon,not now.I’m not in the mood to type anything actually but i figured i must at least type some stuffs about my birthday.

 

I met Isabel for lunch at J8 and we hung out for awhile,places like arcade and coffee bean.Chit chatted abit before going back to church.Youth room was such a turn off,i abandoned everyone and did work for awhile at 03 02(where i feel i belong at the moment).Helped prepare the Fuel session and stuff.Met Gabriel Quek while having dinner man.Fuel itself was alright.

 

Thanks guys for the wishes today.But really i’m unfortunately not in the mood now.

 

Toodles.

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But I Cannot Hear Your Voice When It Calls

But I Cannot Hear Your Voice When It Calls

Terrible mood since last night.Like as if a train of consciousness hit me hard.I think too much and i’m just so depressed and demoralised now.Help.

 

AAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 

Toodles.

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No One Else Will Know That Part Of Me

No One Else Will Know That Part Of Me

Haha ok if u insist,ZOMGWTFBBQWAFFLES!!!!!!!111ONEONE

 

Boring day in school.I reached school and guess what?I LEFT MY GEMS REPORT AT HOME AND SUBMISSION TODAY.Die die i went to retype everything in school.Lucky i remembered most of the stuff so i finished it in no time.Gems itself was alright.Still quite boring,but oh well>_<"

 

Had another architecture dream last night.Am i suddenly so studious?I remember having this weird dream on Friday night,i entered this shopping mall like place.It isn’t like a PS or ThomsonPlaza kind of place,the whole form internally and externally was very very wavy and curvy,something you would expect from Frank Ghery.Anyway i took the escalators down to the 3rd storey,so honestly i dunno how i entered the building to the 4th.The escalator was a long downward one broken into 3 smaller planes,thus having a short horizontal escalator platform in the middle of each plane.Weird.Okay so i went to this restaurant which was by the corridor,think of Pastamania at Cineleisure.I was meeting this classmate of mine for lunch there,and that classmate was not someone i expected to meet.I remembered eating spaghetti with meatballs.We started of with normal chit chat and then we digressed into a whole shitload of architecture stuffs.So much that is beyond me man.So we had this uber cheem architecture conversation then we saw the news on those small tvs hanging from the ceiling about some terrorist attack at some US building and guess who the mastermind was?ZAHA HADID!!!!Then,i woke up.Hmmm

 

Sumo House lunch tomorrow haha.Better wear a thin tshirt since i’m gonna walk abit.Mistake man to wear my Dream Theater tshirt to school today.

 

Other news,i actually went to rip and listen my Blink182 album which i have not touched for 2 years.Adam is also looking for Jimmy Eat World’s Sweetness and Shame.Go Adam!=D

 

Toodles.

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Moments

Moments

Sunday 23/11/08

 

Official Word of the Day:Walk – Crystal(Mark of Cain-Therion)

My personal word of the day: Shadow – Adam(Lotus-Tristania)

 

Tuesday 25/11/08

 

Official Word of Day:APPLE? – Christopher(Question Game)

Official Phrase of the Day:If I am intimate with your pants,will you be intimate with my fists? – Nicole Siew(Question Game)

Personal Dialogue of the Day:Do you like assholes? – Micheal

                                           Do you know who is ******? – Crystal(Question Game)

 

LOL.

 

School was okay today.Met Nicole Siew after that to do work together but ended up watching Stephen Lynch haha.Still funny.We then met Crystal for dinner at Hwa Nam.I didn’t know Beef Hor Fun can be served without gravy:O

 

Meeting for camp with Jarvis,Crystal,Nicole,JiamJiam,Michael and Chris.Starfish joined for awhile.After Jarvis left we brainstormed abit here and there while playing the question game,hence the above hahaha.It even continued all the way to Icekimo man hahaha.Funny funny stuff.Have not laughed that hard for quite awhile=D

 

Ok since i have time,i shall do the consent forms now.

 

Oh btw Crystal,ROFLCOPTER OMGPONIES LOLLERSKATES ZOMGWTFBBQ!!!!!!1111111ONEONEONEONEONE

 

Lol toodles.

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Time Certainly Did Not Wait For Us

Time Certainly Did Not Wait For Us

Can’t you see?We’re more distant than usual now.Gosh.=(

 

Time managed to heal some stuffs though and i’m grateful for that.

 

Grah,exhausting day today.I overslept 15mins,slept on the bus to school,slept during lecture,slept during tutorial and slept on the way to Art Friend.I am totally zonked out today but i still have tons of work undone.I hate it when everyone is holidaying now but i still have school and i am also included in their end of year plans.I mean i love to help out,but i’m not as free as the others.I just received news that i have 1 more engagement,and i don’t even know if i’m singing for the Krygsman’s anniversary yet.Gah.

 

I’m thinking of looking for a growler to jam with us.I mean it once again can open up a few more doors.I mean think about it,a growler and my voice and Crystal’s.We can easily do Typhon-Therion.Glen will be able to do the killer solo too.Hmm.

 

I need to do my model.Toodles.

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Jam

Jam

Ok i just finished editing the recorded files i recorded earlier today.Basically i went jamming from 11 30-1 30pm=D It was damn fun haha just letting loose and playing good music.A total of 4 people jammed today.

 

Crystal-Vocals

Glen-Guitars

Winson-Drums

Adam-Bass and Vocals

 

We jammed 4 songs too.

 

Starlight-Muse

Mark of Cain-Therion

Zombie-The Cranberries

Lotus-Tristania

 

Unfortunately the recordings barely picked up the vocals!=( So there’s like only glimpses of vocals here and there rom Crystal and I and a few more glimpses of the drums to which did not pick up well either.But ah well!=)

 

Winson had to leave early while Glen left for the Anime festival after jamming.Crystal and I went for lunch at Dino’s where we sat beside this group of people and the man was like no shame no face one hahaha.

 

Tired.It’s really a pity the vocals could not be heard,but it’s okay!!!I’m sure the four of us will jam again in the future=)

 

Right,back to schoolwork.Toodles.

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Why I Should Just Shut Up At Times

Why I Should Just Shut Up At Times

Desmond:Can fake boobs be also called Foobs?

Nicole Siew:Erm no?

Desmond:But why?Man boobs are called Moobs anyway.

Me:Eh wait,so are natural boobs called Noobs?

Desmond:HAHA

Nicole:*points at Crystal*NOOB!!!

 

Yea today is one of those days i should just shut up lol.Cantoring was okay today.My voice was really really off anyway so lucky i did not crack up during mass.The father today gave a short but simple and meaningful homily=)

 

JAMMING TOMORROW(today actually) YESSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 

Toodles.

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The Return Of Fuel/Forever Yours

The Return Of Fuel

Well i’m the unlikely person eh.Well thanks,but honestly i don’t deserve it.

 

Tired.School,hang out with Isabel,Fuel>>>>>SHACKED.

 

Well,sometimes i wished i didn’t know u at all=(((((((((((

 

Okokok,Fuel was rather brilliant today.We managed to get Isabel to come so that’s a good start for Fuel’s return!The sharing was okay where i shared stuff which tested my faith a little from thoughts of others around me.

 

Forever Yours by Nightwish is friggin stuck in my head,making me so emo=( But the words really really mean to me and suits how i feel right now.Oh well=(

 

Toodles.

 

Forever Yours-Nightwish

Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness

Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone

Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone

No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I’ll be forever yours

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Prata/Sheep

Prata

Prata for breakfast today can u believe it?Gosh and it’s the church summore not nice one.All thanks to Dayna and her R4 card.But at least i got a new Mario Kart rival>=)

 

Boring day in school today.Hardly anyone’s here except for the usual people.I think i shall go home soon.Heh.I feel so enlightened by reading old lecture slides-_-"

 

Sheep

14:17:35I say:

lol

14:18:00I say:

just force yourself to sleep early lah haha

14:18:04I say:

count sheep=/

14:22:40Because a song is all I have to make me feel. says:

soon i’ll be multiplying the sheep

14:22:50Because a song is all I have to make me feel. says:

dividing

14:23:01I say:

lol

14:23:08I say:

simultaneous equations

14:23:25I say:

volume of fluff on each sheep

14:23:30Because a song is all I have to make me feel. says:

lol

14:23:35Because a song is all I have to make me feel. says:

differentiate to get area

14:23:38I say:

yea

14:23:42Because a song is all I have to make me feel. says:

integrate*

14:23:55I say:

hahah wow this is like mentally torturing the sheep

14:23:58I say:

funny

 

Lol great way to cure your insomnia eh.

Toodles.

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