Time, But A Curve In Space
Okay my apologies. I did not prepare any year end entry.So i’m just gonna do this on the spot.
I definitely can’t say that 2009 has been a great year.Heck,i can’t even say it’s been a normal year.It’s been really really really depressing from March til now.It’s been crazy,a wreck,and all messed up,right to the final hours of the year.Throughout the year i was searching for answers for my existence.I found out that i was invisible almost everytime,i found out how selfish i can be.But yet,i found out friends who are true to me.I shall dedicate a paragraph to them each later.
The main highlight for this year,despite the shallow hills of happiness and the deep deep valleys of depression,has to be my friends.I know i keep talking about friendships for the past year or so,but it’s only this year that i realise how important they really are.I have to admit i was preaching with an empty heart during the previous years.But know,i can say all this sincerely,for despite my depression and the coldness of my heart,i still felt warm sincere love.
Many a times i felt really lost,lonely,cold in this world.I know people try to help once in awhile,but i can tell they just want to help for the sake of helping.If i say,’No thank you’,they’ll just gladly go away.But i have to say a huge thank you to the friends who really stick by me at all times.I wrote in all of your notes already for xmas.
Angie Bong,ever since you left for long periods of time last September (if i can recall,haha),the neighbourhood has been really really quiet.There was no longer a bubbly lively girl living next to me who would call me out randomly and go Icekimo randomly as well.Well i guess it’s true that absence makes the heart grow fonder eh.I always feel glad whenever you return,even if it’s only for 10days.Thanks for listening to me and my problems and all.Even though you can’t be physically here for me all the time,i appreciate all your kind words and all.Thanks.
There WERE days that really made me feel better,and i really treasure those days til the end of my life.It’s mostly the days where i have heart to heart talks with friends.Geri especially.Our talk in March was really a turning point in my life.It was during Good Friday.Even with people like Julian,Isabel,Angie amongst a few more.These conversations really lifted me up a little.
Gabriel Quek,i know you’re really busy with NS and the shifting to CCK and all,but you’re someone who stays true to friendships.We all have our own problems and i really appreciate it,even when you just simply attempt to understand my problems.Like i said,we just have to be more optimistic about life and stuff.If we keep viewing things with a cloud above our heads,we will never go far.I can really tell you’re sincere about this friendship and wanting to bond even more.Well i really hope we can get to know each other too in the near future.Though we rarely talk these days,you’re someone i really treasure.
There were other people who changed my life as well,whether they knew it or not.And ironically these are not friends whom i’ve only met this year,but friends whom i’ve known for at least a year,and they really come in to help me.You can call them unexpected friends,i call them God’s blessing.The thing is,sometimes we are so caught up in the moment,we just focus on the few friends that center our lives during that moments that we forget all the other friends around us and the friendship drifts.Talk to them again,and you never know,sometimes these friends really stick by you no matter what.It’s quite insane,but it’s really touching.
Cassandra Kaitlin Tang Wankit.Kite flying was really fun,Quite retarded,but stupidly fun.Anyway,while Geri was always the one standing by me,you were the first person to actually help me.It was during March,remember?I was working at MOE,you were working somewhere in the south at a boring office job.I think your life changed quite a bit too right,comparing March til now.But anyway,we just suddenly got so close this year.And thanks!Thanks for the pie that night too,unfortunately the leftovers which i dumped in the fridge got mouldy after a few weeks and i had to throw it away.So yea,thanks again Mum! 😀
One siginificant event this year,i must say,is the recording of my demo.8 songs,4 guest vocalists,it was really something new and refreshing.I thoroughly enjoyed myself and all.It’s actually the only good thing this year that i will carry on to the following year,2010.Really awesome stuffs.
Chun Ming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Haha i’m talking to you on msn right now as i’m typing this.Hmm,i know we’ve been close since year2 already,but i really want to thank you for pushing me,whether i fail or not.I’ve lost interest in architecture already and will probably do something else in uni.But still,thanks for all the motivation,inspiration and all.I know last year’s new year’s eve was a heartbreak day for you and all,so i hope this year will be a great great one though you’re simply hiding at home yea!Do know that no matter what happens in the future for both of us,we’ll always keep in contact.Thanks for the tshirt from Australia.It matched the beanie i told you about.Haha.Help me send my Christmas and New Year regards to Kristal.
There are so so so many more other people,and thanks.Thanks Marianne Chan,i certainly have not forgotten you.Thanks Andrew Lau,your words on the xmas card are strong and they really touched me.Thanks Brandon Mak,Claire,Christine Tan and Keat Ling for being so supportive and all in school!Thanks Dorothy my cookie,for always being so optimistic and always cheering me up,whether you know it or not.I’m the cookie!Thanks Julian,for the friendship.Thanks Isabel,for keeping in touch.Thanks Christine Leow,for the Sherlock Holmes movie today and the day out shopping for headphones and all.Damn fun.Thanks Nicole Siew!Thanks for everything.Thanks Regina Grace,i remembered last year’s new years eve we were on msn having a rather sombre conversation,hope this coming year will be bright for you!!!!So many more to thank.Just thanks everyone.
Thanks Geraldine Seah Xiu Qing.All has been said already.There is no need for more words here,don’t you think?:D Let’s just stay true to this friendship.
I will be a happier person next year.
I will be more selfless next year.
I will love more freely next year.
I will live next year.
An hour left!May everyone have a great coming new year okay?May the Lord bless you and keep you.
2009 has been shitty,down the dustbin you go!I won’t exactly embrace 2010,but i hope for change,not the Obama kind of change,just nice change.
Toodles guys! 😀
Adam 