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Today was Techer’s day celebration…Hahaz.So borin…..After dat hang out at J8 with frens………

 

Today i got no mood to type.Sorri….Bye!!!!!!!!Luv u Alison Teo Pei Shan.Pls come back to me.

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The honest truth

Alison,i’ve gotta tell u every thin but why i wanna save this relationship….I’ve been keepin this inside me for 2 weeks.I juz can’t carry this burden any longer…Sry if i’m pressurisin u…….

 

Da past two weeks has realli been HELL to me…..It’s actuialli worse.But i can’t explain it in words……My common test has alreadi started..and i am stressed out by it…Everyday my parents are yellin at me bout stuff which i feel like fightin back.But i can’t..They’ll find out dat i’m lying to them all these while if i fight back…i’m so confused and down…usualli u are there to cheer me up and put my feet back on the ground…But now u’re gone……and i feel even more depressed…..I once actualli felt like jumping cos of all these……I realli can’t live without you Alison……Life is meaningless to me…

 

On dat fateful friday of begging and crying….I went home seriously depressed….and had an asthma attack.Mild one though…I’m ok now…Wad i’m tryin to say is dat my life is more unpredictable than anyone else’s…..I got asthma(many ppl got it),latent tubercolosis(still minor now)….both my grandparents have heart and lung problems…I have about a 300% chance of getting them too…Right now i juz wanna spend my life with da one i love…and dat is u Alison…Yes it is u.Alison Teo Pei Shan………I realli love you…..

 

Since aug12,da last time we hang out as an item,i realli miss u…I wanted to see u again…But when i finally see u again,u want to break up.It’s realli a heartbreak for me….if u think u r feelin a lot of stress now,i’m feelin alot worse……I have to cope with studies,parents who can drive me nuts…..bout da same as u…but i’m also worried about u….worried bout ur studies,health   even worried dat u r seeing other guys and that u luv them more than me,,,,An example is Ee Sheng to be honest…..I keep worryin bout u and our relationship..i worri bout them 24/7…I don even hav time for myself……Even though we’re still an item….I’m still worried and troubled and depressed cos u do not love me as much as b4……..It’s like a fake relationship….and i hate dat….if u come back o my life…things will be much better…not onli for me,but for both of us.

 

I noe it’s hard for u to try and help me save this relationship….but as least u can try instead of giving up!!!Juz believe dat there is a way of savin dis………I believe dat in very relationship,there is it’s ups and downs…Dis is one of it’s downs.But it isn’t da end…i can tell dat….Breaking up is da easy way out…And da easy way out is never gonna benefit us in da long run…..I realli believe dat dis relationship can be saved…..and it can be made even more possible if u help me too….Please come back to my life….Let us write our love story all over again……

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La la la……la?

Lol……Got 8.5/50 for Chinese!!!!!!!!Hahaz….I went around tellin everyone i got double digit mark!LOL……………..

 

Alison i seriously miss you……PLease come back to my life.Let’s let our love story all over again alright?Forget about last friday.Forget about 13 Aug……ok????Let’s juz start all over again………Please help me save our relationship……..Let wadeva happened in da past be a rough draft of our love story….Pls help me write da final draft……Will you???

 

My life is precious to me…..I got illnesses waitin to strike me……Right now i juz wanna enjoy my life….and spend my life with da one i love….Alison,pls come back to me…..I love you from da bottom of my heart…………

 

 

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one quater of CT2 gone

WOOHOO!!!!I passed my History!!!!!Yay!Fine it’s onli 13/25……But i still passed okay!Hahaz…………

 

Tomorrow i’m gonna see Alison.Hope da feelings we shared will come back too her…….Alison.I miss u alot…….Dat’s all for today.Wish me da best in my common test!!!Cya!Luv u Alison

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Juz a short entry

Today’s oral was okay lah.Wasn’t dat bad.But everyone say ‘die lah’ now i also scared!Hahaz…..Stress…2more days to CT2…..I can’t go on computer for nout 2 weeks i think…Unless i’m alone at home…..Ok.I gtg now!!!Bye!!!!!I luv u Alison

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muz i give a title?

Today…….met Alison to settle our differences………Our relationship is falling apart…..Juz wanna say something.Alison,i juz hope u still hav those feelings u used to hav.I’m sorri for everything.I hav never stopped loving since last year the very 1st day i met you.

 

I’ve got nothin much to say today.No mood….I’m juz gonna write 3 song lyrics.Hopefully Alison will see it.2 of them from Yellowcard.The other one is a composition of mine i wrote 2 months ago.It’s called ‘Dear Nicole’.(Luke:i’m not reffering to anybody.Alison:juz replace Nicole with ur name while readin)

 

 

Rough Draft-Yellowcard

Like a Saturday night i’ll be gone

like a Saturday night i’ll be gone before you knew that i was there

 

So you wrote it down i’m supposed to care

Even though it’s never there

Sorry if i’m not prepared

Is it hard to see the things you substitute

For me and all my thoughts of you

It’s eating me alive to leave you

 

Maybe it’s childish,maybe it’s wrong

But so is your blank stare in lieu of this song

Maybe it’s childish,maybe it’s wrong…

 

Don’t wanna be,don’t wanna be wrong

You’re leaving me,you’re leaving me in lieu of this song

Don’t wanna be,don’t wanna be wrong

You’re leavin me,you’re leaving me in lieu of this,in lieu of this song

 

I’m breathing in your skin tonight

Quiet is my loudest cry

Wouldn’t wanna wake the eyes that make me melt inside

And if it’s healthier to leave you be

May a sickness come and set me free

Kill me while i still believe that you were meant for me

 

 I’m finding my own words,my own little stage

My own epic drama,my own scripted page

I’ll send you the rough draft,i’ll seal it with tears

Maybe you’ll read it and i’ll reappear

At the start it was shaky and the characters rash

A nice setting for heartache where emotions come last

All i have deep inside,to overcome this desire

Are friendly intentions and fair weathered smiles…

 

And i,don’t wanna be,don’t wanna be wrong

You’re leaving me,you’re leaving me in lieu of this song

Don’t wanna be,don’t wanna be wrong

You’re leaving me,you’re leaving me in lieu of this,in lieu of this song

 

Like a Saturday night i’ll be gone

Like a Saturday night i’ll be gone

Like a Saturday night i’ll be gone

Like a Saturday night i’ll be gone before you knew that i was there

 

Rocket-Yellowcard

Sleeping late on

Warm afternoon

Waking up to

Bright Silver moon

 

Silent words from

My heart to you

My empty filled

Filled up with you

 

I slip another smile in your pocket

My heart is racing to you like a rocket

I slip another smile in your pocket                              Rockets fly

My heart  is racing to you like a rocket                        Into my sky

 

My empty filled

Filled up with you

 

I slip another smile in your pocket

My heart is racing to you like a rocket

I slip another smile in your pocket                              Rockets fly

My heart is racing to you like a rocket                        Into my sky

I slip another smile in your pocket                              Rockets fly

My heart is racing to you like a rocket                        Into my sky

                 I slip another smile in your pocket             Rockets fly     The two of us we dream like one

My heart is racing to you like a rocket          Into my sky     Our energy will light the sun

              I slip another smile in your pocket                    Rockets fly         The two of us take breath as one

My heart is racing to you like a rocket                  Into my sky       The two of us…The two of us…

          I slip another smile in your pocket             Rockets fly     The two of us we dream like one

My heart is racing to you like a rocket          Into my sky     Our energy will light the sun

              I slip another smile in your pocket                    Rockets fly         The two of us take breath as one

My heart is racing to you like a rocket                  Into my sky       The two of us…The two of us…

 

Dear Nicole-Adam Wesley Aw

Dear Nicole,where are you now?

I simply can’t can’t stop thinking all about you

Dear Nicole,please don’t leave me now

Cos i am totally lost without you

Dear Nicole,please don’t runaway

Cos i am really lonely now

Dear Nicole,please come back

I promise i’ll never do those things to you again

 

Just take a look at me

My life is full of misery

And i am so lonely

Please come back to me

I’m so sincere can’t you see?

I’ll give you anything you need

So girl,please don’t leave

Instead please come back to me

 

Dear Nicole,please understand

I never ever meant to say those things to hurt you

Dear Nicole,will you forgive me?

I promise that i’ll treat you very well at all times

Dear Nicole,i’m begging you

I’ll even go down right oin my knees

Dear Nicole,please come back

I’m sure you’ll never want to see me in this state

 

Just take a look at me

My life is full of misery

And i am so lonely

Please come back to me

I’m so sincere can’t you see?

I’ll give you anything you need

So girl,please don’t leave

Instead please come back to me

 

Dear Nicole,please come back to me

Dear Nicole.please come back to me

Dear Nicole,please come back to me

Dear Nicole,(please come back to me)

 

Just take a look at me

My life is full of misery

And i am so lonely

Please come back to me

I’m so sincere can’t you see?

I’ll give you anything you need

So girl,please don’t leave

Instead please come back to me

 

(Dear Nicole,will you)Please come back to me

(I’m so sorry,will you)Please come back to me

(I’m so sincere,will you)Please come back to me

(Dear Nicole,will you)Please come back to me

 

All I wanna say is dat……..Alison,I will love you always.Pls don leave me.Thx and sry for continuin dis relationship.Sorri for everything too…….Let’s work this out nicely instead of breakin up……………..Hope you like da cards.

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Musicale

Today was finally da day:our organ performance!!!LOL.So fun.Met for rehesarsal at 2pm….Eric was earliest!!!!Suprise suprise!!!lol…..

 

Everythin went well durin da rehersals….then we left on our own ways…I met my parents at Specialist Centrre and had a snack at Garden cafe….After dat i changed and went back to auditorium…at 4 30!.We were supposed to meet at 6!!!LOL.I sat by da window and slept til Jeremy came.We talked and talked….Soon everyone came…at 6.Except Alison!6 30!!!LOL….She wore makeup!!!Lovely!!!Hahaz….But dunno wad she did by da time we perform all da makeup was gone!!!Hahaz….Wanted to take a pic of us today,but she refused…..made me so hurt for bout 30 mins….=(……

 

Finally it was time to perform!!As expected i wasn’t nervous AT ALL.Hahaz.Da song was suprisingly fast…Hahaz.After dat got a Takashimaya voucher!So cool!!!HahazAfter dat discussed with Alis bout our smsing and hangin outs again…..After dat we went home.Tired and Happi….I was still slightly hurt i think…..Bye.Luv u Alison.Oh yeah,pls giv comments.U guys makin me  feel lyk i writin and typin for nothin!Thx

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Day of Mixed Feelings

I dunno how to describe my day today…Started off quite okay….then got a little moody…..dunno y also.Hahaz…..

 

After school i met Alison at Douby Gaught(did i spell correctly???)Had lunch at Plaza S’pura…and met our Yamaha Chief Instuctress!!!LOL….So funny.We went Simei for bout 10 mins then went to Yishun via Jurong East!!Hahaz.We r SO boliao….After dat we took 855 home.On da bus we held hands,hugged,leaned on each other and kissed.So nice…Hahaz…

 

Went home and found out i sent 4015 sms last month…got a big scolding….and gettin punished soon….Now i’m quite depressed……Summore Alison not online…=(……Wadeva lah let her slp….*nitez alis!*……..Tomorrow got concert.Not dat nervous though.Hahaz.Bye.

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National Day Eve

lol.Today was a half day-but not for us…We got da stupid project work IT presentation.Everythin ended at 2pm!!Longer than some normal sch days!!!LOL.After dat i rush to Northpoint to meet Alison.Bloody hell,taxi fare cost $9.60!!!Daylight robbery!!!nvm.I’ll let him off this once!Hahaz

 

We took a train all da way to choa chu kang.Got off there for bout 10 mins before takin da train all da way to douby ghaut.Hahaz.We had a terribly late lunch there,then we visited Yamaha.Taught Alison some sound effects on da clarinova…Think she enjoyed it.LOL

 

Guess who we met on da way to mrt???Luke,Terrence and Zachary!!!Met me with my gf!!!omg….Anywayz i juz toked to them for awhile then i left…..Took mrt back to yishun then took bus home….Very fun day….Could hav been more fun if i went for da bbq though….nvm.I muz be contented with wat i hav…LOL.

 

Btw feel free to write comments wadsoever ok?Thx.

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Today reported sch at 9.Wahlao Kendrick pontang sch.Dunno y my mum force me to go…haiz…

 

Hang out with Alison after school at Compass Point.We walked and walked and walked til our feet so pain.hahaz.We held hands as usual,but we hugged too!Hahaz.Some progress at least….Next time muz hug tighter,if not then it isn’t shiok!LOL.

 

Chatted with Jeremy Ng again.He keep on asking me for luv tips,as if i noe liddat…Sometimes he can be kinda irritatin…Hahaz…

 

Tomorrow goin Tan Tock Seng Hospis.Got Tubercolosis Check….So boring…I’d rather stay at home lor…Still so tired from yesterday’s concert.After that got 3hrs of tuition,then church.I sure burn out after dat…

 

Common test comin soon.Muz study….if not i fail 6 subjects lyk term 1.LOL……juz hope sch won be more stressful.I can explode anytime!!!

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