It Rains Like Hell

It Rains Like Hell

I was caught in the rain today – twice.The 1st one wasn’t that bad.The 2nd one was hedious.

 

The 74 i took was awfully slow to start off with.It wasn’t the uncle’s fault,there was this massive jam at Dunearn Road anyway.I easily spent an hour plus in the bus.That was also when it started raining so frickin crazy.Well so at Lornie Road,the annoying bus broke down,leaving all the passengers stranded at one of those ulu bus stops over there at nightfall.You know how annoying it is?Very okay.Super annoying.

 

I decided to not take a 74 again and wait for the 855.As usual it took 2 rounds of cows to get home before the bus finally came.It came PACKED TO THE VERY FRONT.Because i was hero and ran towards the bus in the rain,the uncle had no choice but to open the door for me.And i could not use my free ride cos 74 is SBS while 855 is SMRT.WTF!

 

The people around me were annoying,i was wet cos the bus stop was so small,the weather pissed me off,the itty bitty scarey cat girls were screaming everytime a huge lightning streaked across the blackened night sky.It was a perfect recipe for the end of mankind,or the end of my happy optimistic mood.You’d expect the worst song to play at a time like this was A Nightmare To Remember by Dream Theater right?NO.My mp3 chose to play Tristania’s …Postludium.Basically it’s one minute of rain in the background with a very intense gregorian chant getting louder and louder til it grips you tight before leaving you with silence.Shit man.Theatre of Tragedy’s Storm also played.So ironic.855 also had annoying people.What’s up man!

 

Nvm,i’m stressed enough with submission already.Choir tomorrow.I miss my friends man.I miss the girls more.I don’t know,most of my close friends are girls and are in the choir.

 

Toodles.

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Home/Return To Architecture/Human Race/Return To You

Home-Passion’s Grace

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Marianne Chan-Vocals
Adam Wesley Aw-Vocals, Guitar

[Music and Lyrics by Adam Aw]
What am I doing here?
Oh how I long to disappear
Tangled webs of same old lies
As a part of me inside dies

I hear your name in my head
As I lie here on my bed
Streams of endless misery
Carry me across the sea

My heart pounds for yours

Stay with me as I weep
For my soul is yours to keep
Please don’t mind my foolishness
Listen to me
I’m in distress

The sky cries for you

Take me home, where I stay
Please don’t let me decay
The smell of roses in your hair
Is what I need for my repair

Crimson skies and autumn leaves
I can’t let go, I can’t believe
I’m longing for something true
So don’t let go, I need you

My home calls for you

 

Return To Architecture

School’s back with a BANG (ouch i’m dead)!

 

1st week was basicaly talks at National Library and school plus workshops and all.Pretty fun at times,boring at times,but there’s simple no denying that the food at the Archifest forum was HEAVENLY,well,until day2 lunch that is.Heh.

 

Hmm,some photos.

 

Human Race

Before i left for F1 Pit Building on Friday night,i was in church with the rest for daily mass.Grace Goh let me read her Cleo magazine and there was an arcticle of how emotions can be contagious and spread easily.Very true.In fact it’s the reason why i always try my best to keep my emotions at bay.If only others will be able to see things this way as well.If only i can be better in this area too.

 

Anyway,Human Race!We met on Friday night to stayover before the real deal started at 4am.Baggage management is seriously no joke.Very very busy,especially when they deposit their bags.You’ve got to be fast,quicl,effecient and stay happy and serve people with a smile. 😀 I walked a hell lot,placing the bags in their allocated positions and stuff.The race the began and we had a short break before the runners went to collect their bags again.Collection was much easier,for me at least since i knew where the bags were and all.It was no so tiring as depositing bags too.Whew.Fun indeed.

 

School has started and there’s a submission coming really soon.I don’t want to start school again,but i must adapt quickly.On a site note,i want to thank all my friends for being with me during these weeks.I know i may have been an ass at times and i’m really sorry,but thanks for putting up with me too.A few people i wan to mention are Marianne Chan for making my online nights much more fun-filled!And it’s good to know someone who’s a little like me too haha.Our secret shall be sealed!Thanks Geri again,your small gestures and stuff really lifts me up.Thanks for trying,i can see and feel it.:) Thanks Chun Ming for Popeye’s :D. Just chatting with you made me feel good lah haha.Congrats on being 14th for human race! 😀

 

Toodles.

 

Return To You-Visions Of Atlantis

I know not the words to make you stay,
Yet they are engraved on your face.
This secret language, I cannot speak,
Only whisper on the breeze.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all curled up inside.
Haunting apparitions that are hidden to the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

Cruel means took you far away from here,
Yet your ghost has inspired me.

I shall walk in shadows under the sun,
Awaiting your faithful call.

My breath, these tears, my cries, all caught up inside.
Celestial apparitions that are shaded in the dark light of day.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

What once was lost is now found deep inside of your soul
Cry out for me and I will return to you.

Our destiny shall arrive, someday Angel,
I will come to you.
Our fates shall coincide, one day, dear child,
I will come for you.

I return to you…

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Compile

Compile

I shall just put everything here cos i’m too lazy to sectionalize my entry today.

 

Last Tuesday was my 1st free day after competition submission on Monday.Went for an acoustic jam with Marianne Chan.I have to say it was rather productive and smooth.We then went to my place area for some good food before going to Esplanade to hang out and stuff.Short and queer day to be honest,but it was fun. 🙂

 

Wednesday i went out with Gabriel Quek before he left for Taiwan.We went bowling.Our first game be beat me 126 to 113.I won him the 2nd game with a score of 140 to 121.So yes,i have broken my personal best!My previous best was 138 btw.Quite pleased with my game.Played billards and pool after that.It was so long,about 2-3 hours?It was incedibly insane.Travelled all the way (got lost halfway too) to Parklane for some LAN before heading home tired and hungry.Once again,a pretty queer but fun day.

 

Thursday was competition presentation.We got 3rd!Not too bad lah,don’t quite like the prize though.Bleargh.Hung out in school with Brenda before heading for Udder’s.Quick ice cream before we parted ways.Dinnered with Joshua!Pretty fun too and all.Wasn’t as queer a day but certainly fun as well.

 

Friday i stayed at home. 😀

 

Yesterday/Saturday,i went to Bishan library to browse stuffs,but guess what?HAPPY DEEPAVALI!!!!!So i went church early.Someone i thought was close to me gave me a really distant feel,but whatever.Choir was okay,i was awfully pitchy.Could not stand it myself.Bleargh.Gave Crystal her birthday present and i hope she likes it.Ordered all the way from Europe haha.Night prac was okay.Cheeky Chocolates after that wasn’t too bad. 🙂 I walked Geri to Nemesu after that and we parted ways,not before making my day. 🙂

 

 

 

Today was pretty boring.Rawr.

 

Toodles.

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Home

Home

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What am I doing here?
     Oh how I long to disappear
Tangled webs of same old lies
     As a part of me inside dies

I hear your name in my head
     As I lie here on my bed
Streams of endless misery
     Carry me across the sea

My heart pounds for yours

Stay with me as I weep
     For my soul is yours to keep
Please don’t mind my foolishness
     Listen to me
          I’m in distress

The sky cries for you

Take me home, where I stay
     Please don’t let me decay
The smell of roses in your hair
     Is what I need for my repair

Crimson skies and autumn leaves
     I can’t let go, I can’t believe
I’m longing for something true
     So don’t let go, I need you

My home calls for you

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Today has been a rather smooth day.Could have done more in school if only they did not shut down the air con unit so early and bake me in the library room full of (nice smelling) UHU glue.There’s still quite a bit to be done and tomorrow is submission already,but i believe we can do it!Affirmative!

 

I’m trying to get my life mentally and emotionally back on track.Some of you know i’ve been doing stupid things during this period of time.As Brenda says,Adam=IMPULSE!So yea,it’s not easy,but i’ll try.

 

Thanks everyone who played a part in my life this year so far.

 

Speaking of impulse,i feel like meeting up and catching up with my ex.I don’t know if it’s a good idea,but after all,i resolved to revive friendships.I very highly doubt Alison comes here any longer,but she DID play quite a fair role in my life,and i feel we should just meet up and catch up with each other’s life. 🙂

 

EDIT

Marjolein Kooijman (The Gathering)

FINALLY A GOOD FEMALE BASSIST!!!! :DDD

 

Toodles.

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Regression

Regression

Gerard Bong : Don’t overwork yourself okay.

 

Me: Heh,nah i won’t,don’t worry.Goodnight. 🙂

 

Sorry,i lied.

 

A casual visit to jazz band today just made me realize how much my bass playing has regressed.I’ve fallen behind so much.I feel so lousy and incapable in bass playing now.I guess my mood affected my playing as well.I’ve lost half of myself this year,which is immense love for music.

 

Today has been a rather rollercoaster day.Lots of ups and downs.

 

Ups

Bus ride with Namie. 🙂 (Ba Chang!)

Talk with Geri 🙂 (hugzzzz)

 

Downs

Waking up so frickin early for human race briefing and ending up being drenched in the rain

Subway diner

 

Tomorrow will be a good day.I promise i will try.

 

Toodles.

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But I Don’t See You These Days/A Monday Night In March

But I Don’t See You These Days

Why am i so sad?

 

Why do u think i’m so sad?

 

My heart feels so heavy.Sigh.Very disappointed with myself.Stupid competition wasted my entire holidays.Ah,regret regret regret.Imagine all the precious days that were wasted being used for something much better,more productive,more joyful.Isn’t there anyone who watches out for me?

 

I’ve let some friendships go back to normal,i’ve released the closeness.I want it to be close,but it’ll hurt me.It hurts too,to loosen the friendship.Makes me want to tear at times.Maybe i’m just not meant to have any close friends,or anyone to remember me.It has been a roller coaster these months,but honestly at the end of it all,i still don’t feel warmth,nor love.I’m still stuck at square one.Yes i’m still depressed.But it’s hard to hide it all the time.

 

It has gone to the point where everyone,yes everyone,annoys me.

 

God,where are you?

 

Toodles.

 

A Monday Night In March-Damian Wilson

We used to talk when we were younger
But I don’t see you these days
And if we’d sleep we’d never slumber
The world was new with its ways

 You were such a girl
You'd smile so sweetly and you'd say
We'll grow old and we'll be lovers
But I don't see you these days

Well, we can laugh cos we are wiser
It was different those days
The things we'd do to be together
We had the craziest ways

You were just so kind
You'd hold me close and I'd say
Don't leave me when I'm older
But I don't see you these days

And as we talk we move much closer
You just smile for you know
All this while as we've grown older
We haven't changed but we've shown…

Part of our life
That means much more than we could ask
And if we'd ever stayed together
I wonder how it would last

And if we'd ever stayed together
I wonder how it would last

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When You Go Out Of Town Do You Ever Think Of Me?/The Poison You Put In Your Veins Might Make You Share My Fate

When You Go Out Of Town Do You Ever Think Of Me?

It pains me to see how things are currently unfolding.It pains me even more than i can’t do anything about it.It kills me to know that everyone is so blind about it.

 

I’m alone.Alone in school.I’m not sure if this library thing is fun anymore,but i’ve got no choice but to complete my task.

 

I feel so negative.I know things will never turn out my way but yet i carry on believing that it will actually happen.I care too much,no correction,i STILL care too much.I feel so alienated from the world.I feel so distracted and lost.I feel i don’t belong anyway.I feel so unimportant.

 

The Poison You Put In Your Veins Might Make You Share My Fate

I feel like i’m dying.

 

I feel that my life will just end abruptly and i will not see it coming.Is it a sin to live day by day and refuse to see the big picture when ultimately i won’t be able to see the end product?

 

Okay,so maybe i do fear death a little after all,cos i know i will go to hell and that’s where i do not want to be.

 

Repent.

Black Heart.

Redemption?

 

Toodles.

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When You Hear The Cries Of The Ones That Should Have Died

When You Hear The Cries Of The Ones That Should Have Died

http://www.facebook.com/v/160927413856

 

Why haven’t you replied my email?I know that you’re fine and all,but i want to hear from you.You know how much you mean to me.

 

Why do i get the feeling you’re keeping a distance from me?I did not do anything at all.Talk to me,will you?

 

Ok you know what,i shall stop blogging like this.If i don’t like people flaming me on their blogs,then by doing this,i’m just being very hypocritical.I shall channel all my resentment else where.

 

I shall not be like my old self ever again.I must try,no matter what,for the sake of friendships,no1 or no1000,it’s the same.

 

Urgh,i’m pissed,but no one cares of course.

 

Toodles.

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October

October

And Yellowcard’s October Nights randomly plays in my head.

 

I thought i had done us a favour by just breaking the silence and talking to you.But no,i feel worse.You know what,i should just be numb to it all.I should never have gotten closer to you.And the only way to ease this is just for me to back off alright.I thought you were my Saviour.I can’t believe i spent so many frickin months stressing over this when it doesn’t even affect you a single bit.

 

I know i can’t end our friendship totally,i can’t bear to.No matter how much i don’t want to care,i will still care a little.So i’m just gonna,just gonna stop all of this shit and leave you be.You won’t even bother either.I spent so much time subconciously worrying for nothing.

 

Oh well,i hate to have friendships balance on a thin line,but this is too much.

 

Anyway,my demo is out.Been giving them out here and there,hope people like it.Once again thanks to all those who lent their vocals,especially people like Crystal,Matthew and Namie who took some time off their really busy schedule.Appreciated it.Stacie too,really appreciated it.Thanks guys! 🙂 I owe all of you one.I wonder what happens if i get a gig.I probably need a female vocals to cover all my female lines heh.So interesting if that happens.

 

Give me something for my mind
something for the pain inside
A remedy, a cure for life
An elixir for this manica of mine

 

Toodles.

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