Shatterheart

Shatterheart

I’m still feeling like shit.Shit shit shit even though wad had happened was oso a good thing in some sense.I juz feel kinda listless now and i juz dun even feel like doin anythin at all.If onli she understood how i am feeling.If onli she were in my shoes,she would noe how i felt mentally and emotionally throughout the past few days.Tml’s Labour Day and i’m goin for some church stuff.Honestly i’d rather have school.Haiz…..

 

Seeing her dis Saturday again.Hope we’re still friends,hope she talks to me,hope we forget the past,hope she likes me as a friend,hope that i would be cheered up by then,juz hope dat we can be good frens,dat’s all i’m hoping for.

 

I made it into the jazz band,but dat does not even cheer me up.

 

Maybe i caused myself to be in this state since it was I who asked her at 5 30am dis morning.But my mind was realli troubled and i had to get it off my chest.But it was good in a way dat i faced da fact early.I hardly slept last nite,and i had several dreams of different church ppl telling me to let her go,so i indeed smsed her and i indeed am trying to let her go now.I juz pray and hope for da best between the two of us.

 

I still feel like shit.=(

 

Toodles.

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Rejected Yet Released

Rejected Yet Released

‘Well,just being frank,the main reason is cause i will never like you that way.’

 

So dis is how it finalli ends.Fine.I’m glad too.At least it is da truth,no matter how frank it is,and i will juz get up once again.Adam’s Chapter3 has ended.

 

After 9months,Adam’s love burden has been released.Adam is a free man now.No doubt about it,it’s Crystal Clear.

 

Lecture soon.Toodles.

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Pictorial

Pictorial

Went to church to study and do some stuff for da afternoon.After dat it was insane hahaz.Me and Crystal went to Lucas’ house.We played some form of badminton which we hit some wierd thing instead of a shuttlecock.It was damn sensitive to da wind and it was fast and small.Then we juz threw a tennis ball at each other hahaz.Then me and Crystal tried out Lucas’ crazee SnakeBoard.It was damn freakin hard to control hahaz.After dat we went to his house to play wif somethin like Uno Stacko and we juz created our own games wif da tiles hahaz.Nicole dropped by for awhile.Okok enuff talk and time for PICTURESSSSSS.33 to be exact =D

Toodles.(pictures not in order)

All photos,nice and ugly,were taken by Lucas and I.=D

Toodles….

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Marriage/Struggle/Church/Memories

Marriage

Ok da wedding was kinda okay.Sang quite well and stuff…..Lunch at Pastamania.Throughtout da entire day i was talkin to Stacie.Yupz.Oh btw i saw dragonflies mating,or in Desmond’s words,Dragonfly porn.Quite interesting lahz hahaz.

 

Ok dis will be another short entry cos i’m friggin tired.

 

Struggle

I’m still struggling to fit in into Hyperion.Their type of music is not my type and i’m not a very good keyboardist to start off wif.Many many chord changes and crazy keyboard arperggios lines.I still find Glen’s guitar and Laurent’s drums way way way way way way too loud.Honestly,i dunno how long i can last as a keyboardist.

 

Church

Tiring,due to all da shit dat happened b4.But mass was okay and so was practice.Basically everythin was okay lahz.Nothin much to type about,except Lucas wore high heels hahaz.I got a pic,but it’s too killer to out it up here.I shall put other pics.

 

Me and Stacie.Da two original Baltos hahaz.Dat’s damn long ago hahaz,bout 2 years ago.Suddenly we’re mentioning it again.How nice.Hehz.

Stacie’s toenail.Nice rite?!?Hahahaz………….

 

Memories

Was flipping through da St Gabs annuals which i received last year.Flipping through memories on pages juz keeps me quiet and juz think back bout those days when i was still there,good and bad memories.Listening to Godspeed(Sweet Dreams)-Dixie Chicks brings back da mood even more.

 

Ok toodles…….

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Bump/Wedding Bells

Bump

Hahaz short entry here.I’ve actualli bumped ino frens monday-friday lahz!hahaz 1st time for me.Met Isabel on da bus to school yesterday and Laurent at Dover MRT today.Hmm…..aha!Dis shows dat i’m realli popular hahahaz.Ok i’m being ego-istic now hahaz.

 

Wedding Bells

Tml singing for wedding early morning,then jamming,then church again.Out from 7 30am to 11pm lahz!!!!Goodness me………………..Oh wellz,haiz haiz haiz……..

 

Minutes To Midnight-Linkin Park—->14May =)

Systematic Chaos-Dream Theater->5June =D

 

Toodles.

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Better Off/Auditions/The Score So Far

Better Off

I’ve been bumping into ppl quite often hahaz.Let’s see,i saw Twohill at church bus stop while i was on da bus on monday.Then yesterday i saw Marianne walking towards da bus stop after church bus stop while i was on da bus too hahaz.I doubt she saw me though lol.Sigh,I wish Marianne would return to choir.Then on da way home i met Tarcia at Macrithie bus stop.From da way she describes her dunno wad tourism course,she makes my course sem betta off and much betta lol.She’s oso in SP btw.

 

Auditions

Wah Auditions was spastic today.At da start when they ask me to play somethin,i could juz play anythin!But wad did i play?Cmon Girl!!!!WTH?!?!!?I could have chosen somethin like Solar Groove lahz!!And da walking bass part was even more spastic!!Graa!!!Hahaz da chords were played damn bloody fast lahz!!!!Then all da chords is not ur everyday C G Am F chords lorz hahaz!Dunno lahz got F6,Am7.C7.Bbm7 dunno wad shit lahz!Hahaz i noe da chord structure,but i cant think dat fast man hahaz.All i played was octave notes hahaz!!!!

 

The Score So Far

School has been smooth sailing for me dis week so far.Hahaz.Got one guy i cant remember his name,all he cares about is prizes and pokemon lol.On monday after our breifing for our project hen when time to ask questions,onli he answered ‘Got any prize?’ Hahaz then yesterday while playin wif da computer program all he ever did was build a dinosaur instead of a building and he juz boasted it for da entire day!!hahaz.Then today oral communication when we muz sort give our opinion bout anythin to out frens,he spoke damn freakin loudly.

 

‘Wah u noe da pokemon Abra ar??Wah he damn hard to catch lehz!!I hit him ar,he teleport run away!!So i keep on throwing pokeball.But then ar!!His health full lehz!Damn hard to catch!So i juz keep on throwing and throwing.Then when no more pokeball,i reload!’

 

At dat moment in time it was kinda hilarious.Hahaz oh and Brandon,SKII isnt used for slimming =.="

 

Ya then durin Environmental Science today.

Lecturer:So wad are living components which affects our environment?

Students:*Reading off Powerpoint slides*Plants….Animals………Micro-organisms…….

Pokeboy:Pokemon!!!

Me:=.="

 

Other than him,i’m mixing wif my group well too.Benn talking to Brandon most often,maybe followed by Cheryl and Lezlie and da list goes on and on and on…….Class has yet to be too boring,especially wif Brandon and his endless lameness hahaz.We’re gonna buy him a wheelchair for his birthday!!!!=D

 

Talked lots of crap lahz hahaz.Dat’s about it.

 

"There’s a thing in my pants.It is not one thing,it is many things"XD

 

Toodles.

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Jamming/Me,Gabriel,Crystal,Lucas And The Tale Of The Monkey And The Two Paper Aeroplanes

Jamming

I finalli went jamming!!!Hahaz Glen asked me to join Hyperion as a keyboardist.So i decided to give it a try before deciding.And it was a blast.Hahaz.I have to say,the addition of keyboards makes the sound fuller,juz like me compositions(ahem).Yea i think i’ll probably join them lahz.Hhahaz.Aloysious!!!Hahaz!Grade 5 buddies always!!!!!!!!!!!!!=D

 

Me,Gabriel,Crystal,Lucas And The Tale Of The Monkey And The Two Paper Aeroplanes

Well nite practice was crazy.Fine it was crazy after nite practice hahaz.Me Lucas and Crystal threw 2 paper aeroplanes at each other til Benedict interfered.Hahaz so we played monkey wif paper aeroplanes hahaz.Yea as u can guess,Ben was da monkey.Hahaz then after awhile Gabriel joined in after seeing me kick an aeroplane like a soccer ball hahaz.And the craziness went on for quite awhile til we finalli left for Icekimo.Took a few pics along the way but i onli saved 2 of them.

 

Me and Gabriel hahaz.I have no idea how i got da effect.Muz be da condensation on da lens…..

Lucas.Hey his watch matches his  bike i didnt realise….ok fine i’m being random.

 

Then went Icekimo and me and Lucas argued wif Crystal bout pimple outbreaks hahahaz.She complains she has it though we dun see a thing hahaz.But yea,2 pics to prove dat we CAN’T see it hahaz.=P

 

Benedict,Lucas,Gabriel,Crystal—–>can’t see rite?????

Lucas,Gabriel,Me,Crystal——–>Still can’t see rite?!?!?!?!?

 

Hahaz actualli dat’s about it lahz hahaz.As usual,i’m making a huge hoo-haa deal out of entirely nothin.Oh da 2 aeroplanes are wif me now lol.

 

Now looking forward to Saturdays cos of church friends,ppl whom i can mix around betta than SP ppl.I’ve been talking more to ppl hahaz….Me,Gabriel,Crystal………from Halmm floorball team to Halmm’s full-time aeroplane thowers =D

 

Toodles!!!

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Zero Confidence/Succor Midst Sorrow/Shadow Of You

Zero Confidence

Juz got an email from SP jazz club about da auditions next wednesday.After seeing da requirements,i have absolutely no confidence.1stly,i’m not very good in jazz playin..In da requirements,i muz sight read sheet music.DIE.I muz play 3 scales 2 octaves and keys wil be given on da spot.MIGHT DIE.Muz play walking bass line.DIE.Muz understand chord structures.MAY SURVIVE.Haiz……

 

Adam has no confidence rite now.=(

 

Succor Midst Sorrow

Composed a small instrumental Succor Midst Sorrow.Kinda progressive sounding.I dun realli like it though.Haiz…Why cant there be a SP Progressive Metal club???

 

Shadow Of You

I juz found a song writing buddy in the form of Clare Quek.So now,not much instrumentals from me.We juz did our 1st song today called Shadow Of You.Yupz.Very general rock kind wif progressive sounding guitar solos hehz.Words by her,music by me.Oh wellz……..

 

I need some confidence!!!Graaaaaaaa…………………………..toodles.

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Fragile/4 Rules/Red Is A Slow Colour

Fragile

Juz thinkin back at some stuff…..i realli realize how fragile friendship is.So hard to gain,even easier to lose.Treasure those dat ae dear to you.U never noe when they will leave u.

 

Anywayz,i’m feelin betta now.

 

4 Rules

In case u didt noe,i have 4 simple rules.If u cant even obey them,u can forget about being friends wif me.I’ve had it.

 

1)Never tell me to change the things i have been doing for many years.

2)Never tell me to stop singing unless u want everyone to be silent.

3)If i say No at least 3 times.It is a definete NO.

4)Don’t rub it in.

 

Still wanna be frens wif me?

 

Toodles.

 

Red Is A Slow Colour-The Gathering

The black house in in my street
looks too dark just to go inside
But when I do
I cannot move because of
the mess in the hallway
The picture on the wall is chaotic
I don’t want to look at it
But when I do
I cannot speak because of
the confusion in my head
I am unfit and I want to leap away
But when I do
The red colour comes after me
It is fierce and it moves slow
The picture on the wall is chaotic
I don’t want to look at it
But when I do
I cannot speak because of
the confusion in my head
I am unfit and I want to leap away
But when I do
The red colour comes after me
It is fierce and it moves slow

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Emptiness

Emptiness

Mixing around wif most of my Poly classmates and group mates juz makes me realli appreciate and miss my church frens.Every single one of them.Period.

 

I dun wanna talk about anything.Not about bass guitars,not about poly,not about halmm,not about blinded edge,not about Heroes,not about her,not about anything.Juz anything.I dun wanna talk about anything.

 

Go away.Come back in an hour’s time after dis post i should be betta by then.

 

Toodles.

 

Go Away.

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