Friends
"You’re my best friend. You can’t even begin to understand how incredibly hard it was for me to ever open up to you. Then I did, and I haven’t stopped since. You know me better than anyone else in the world. And yet, despite this, you still don’t trust me. I’ve put absolutely everything I have into this friendship and… you don’t even show me the courtesy of doing the same. You have no idea how much this hurts me."
I know i’m over it. But sometimes I look back and just wonder if it was always me in the wrong. Yes, the what ifs and what could have beens too. It just pains me that it has to be this way now. It just pains me that I can no longer stay. It just pains me it will never be how it will be before and that it will probably be different and suck if it really went back to how it was before. We aren’t like computers who can ctrl-Z. We can’t do that do our feelings, our emotions. I still feel the pain, I still feel your love. I could never ever stay. I’m sorry.
Perhaps I’m not over it at all. You don’t care after all right.
It’s no longer the self pity shit. It’s more of the feeling of loss of someone though that someone is still there, right before my eyes.
To quote from my friend Zheng Yi,
Silence in a friendship could just mean the death of one. It s like the heart beating machine, it doesnt beat anymore, it just lay out one continuous silent line.
The death of a friendship.
Goodbye.
Fair-Weathered-Adam Aw
Share my joy
Share my riches, share my gold
Then leave me alone
Out in the cold
This fork in the road
My sight can’t bend
You were once with me
Now alone I stand
Thanks for all the poison kisses
Share my riches, share my gold
Then leave me alone
Out in the cold
This fork in the road
My sight can’t bend
You were once with me
Now alone I stand
Thanks for all the poison kisses
Cold hard rain
This cold heart’s pain, forever insane
So lost in life
Summer’s on the wane
A delusion I face
My mind’s in vain
Every day and night
Feels all the same
Thanks for all the poison wishes
So cheers to you, fair-weathered friend
You were once the best, above all the rest
So goodnight to you, fair-weathered friend
You were just a lie, burthen to the breast
Heaps of praise
Praise the actions, praise the deeds
Trampling the roses
Sowing the weeds
A black rose I bloom
To raven’s cry
You who stood by me
Now watch me die
Thanks for all the poison kisses
So cheers to you, fair-weathered friend
You were once the best, above all the rest
So goodnight to you, fair-weathered friend
You were just a lie, burthen to the breast
Adam 