Downtrodden And Lorn

Downtrodden And Lorn

I still think I’m so stupid to trust you so much last time. I was so foolish to think you would always be there for me. I know I keep saying that I’m over it, but I can’t deny that these angry thoughts have been prodding my brain frequently for months.

 

It makes me sick to see you not bothered at all.

 

Confinement week over. It’s still horrible. I don’t want to go back in. But then again, it’s not as if I get total peace at home. Just what was life like before? I can’t remember anymore. I’m trapped in a virtual cage without the existence of a key.

 

I survived 9 days without music. You know how cruel is that? I cannot bring my mp3 player in. But does it matter anyway?

 

I miss seeing her smile, which makes me smile. I miss hearing her excitement, which makes me smile.

 

I met with Julian today for brunch. It’s sad how National Service can twist our life into something so bent and crumpled, it will never be the same again.

 

Toodles.

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Can You Recall Our Last Sunset?

Can You Recall Our Last Sunset?

It’s been 3 days in SPF and I’m out already. It’s always tough during the 1st few days. It’s the worst. Confinement week will be much worse. I have to bear it through no matter what. Now that I’m back at the comfort of my own home, I just don’t wanna go back in, but I have to.

 

It makes me miss how life was before I enlisted. I was sitting in the drill shed ytd with the squad and all and I was just having flashbacks of the past. Exactly a year ago I was complaining about architecture and the JC4 submission. A few months ago I started working at PageOne and that in truth, was the highest point in my life. I really miss the people there, the atmosphere and all. All the complaints about the trivials I mentioned about PageOne, I take it all back. I miss working there like shit. I called Bih Chyi last night, I really had to talk to someone. Luckily she answered. I’m gonna have dinner with her tomorrow. But really, hearing a familiar voice over the phone just made me smile.

 

I booked out today. I tried to call up some other people. Stacie and Rachel, both never picked up their calls. It’s okay.

 

I miss you PageOne people. Toodles.

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