I just had my second internal meeting today. The first one was on the 3rd day of this job and I was like a lost sheep in the office. Today though, I had a voice and several opinions. People listened to me. They agreed with me most of the time and corrected me during the other times, but they listened to me. It is nice to know that you have a place in this team that you are in, and that is what I am experiencing right now. Yes, often I still find that I am trying to learn stuff and often I fear that I am slow. But the point is that I am still contributing and that makes a difference. It is also weird but yet refreshing to have someone working with me, but yet slightly ‘under’ me. It isn’t fair to say this as she is way more experienced in this current job than me, but the fact is she is assisting me with my work. It is the first time I am of that level to give work to someone, after 26 years. It also made me realize how comfortable I became being the lowest in a group, in a company, in my social circles. It scared me a little when I first thought about that.
I need another relaxing weekend.